Replace sarcasm with kindness.
I struggled with this today. Not in the sense that I couldn’t get the sarcasm out of my voice, but that I couldn’t even think of myself as sarcastic with my kids. It’s just not what I do with them. I asked Jeremy, and he wasn’t able to twist it into something I could use. So instead of trying to think of some incident where I may have used sarcasm and how I could have been better about being kind, I’m going to do an end-of-year post. It’s nearing midnight on December 31st, and there is a small chance I might actually stay awake. (Maybe if I keep writing…)
We went out to dinner as a family, and as we toasted the end of 2012, I thought about what a year it has been. I told Jeremy that I was ready for a banner year in 2013; that 2012 just wasn’t my year. He responded that it was a rebuilding year for me. A football term I actually think relates to my life. 2012 was all about change, reflection, rejection, starting anew. Here’s a quick recap…
In March I lost my job as Director of Operations for a small business in Maryland that had been taken over by a larger Pennsylvania company that didn’t quite know what to do with me. That was after almost a year of turmoil trying to get used to a big company and corporate politics. I saw it as a blessing in disguise. I spent 2 months reflecting on what I could do next, enjoying time with the kids but, after getting desperate, took a horrible job that required a long commute but paid what we needed to keep living the life we had built. Then, just when we felt we needed it the most, Jeremy got offered a job in Providence, RI. Within 3 weeks, our house was sold, packing had begun, and we had a rental home waiting for us in Providence. After the move, I spent the summer enjoying our Rhode Island exploration and getting our family settled in a new state. Job searching continued, but I was getting very discouraged. Finally, through connections, I was offered a job back in real estate – a field that has always held interest for me. I pushed to get licensed within 7 weeks, while also getting used to a new work schedule, trying to meet new friends, making sure the kids were transitioning well, and questioning whether I had made the right choice taking a job that couldn’t support my family financially.
In all honesty, my work schedule is great. Flexibility was the key reason I took this new job. I have met a few friends, but I’m still waiting to find “the one” who will join me for a burger, a beer and a chick flick. The kids have done better than I ever could have hoped for. Mason transitioned seamlessly. Cooper has his moments, but overall he is doing great. I know that once we get settled in a neighborhood and he gets to Kindergarten, he will be even better. And as for questioning my job? I think that’s just part of the real estate world. I don’t think there will ever be job security. It’s a risky field, especially knowing I am basically self-employed. But I just have to keep reminding myself that this move was all about resetting the bar. Heck, this whole year has been about resetting the bar! It’s tough to change your expectations in life, to let go of some unrealistic dreams, but these are the moments that will shape me and my family – for the better, I think! We’re starting anew here in Rhode Island, and 2013 will bring even more change, but also more peace… more confidence in our choices… more understanding of who we are and “where” we want to be…
So I’m toasting goodbye to 2012 and hello to 2013. May it be a banner year for us and for all of you! Happy New Year!
P.S. Writing this post got me within 45 minutes of midnight. I think I might have to push to stay awake until midnight for the first time in years!